first attempts

today i tried using my calligraphy brush, which was like $3, which = crappy. these are my first attempts from today and yesterday.

med school + mid life crisis

it's been 3 weeks of med school.

9 days of lecture + anatomy lab, 4 study days, 1 written exam + 1 practical exam, and so far 3 days of partying + class/lab + general laziness

i feel like i've been at this forever. there is no easing into med school, you just get thrown into the cold cold water. but after two solid weeks of studying, and taking the exam, and getting my score back, i finally feel i can do the next 2 years. i had definitely never studied so much in my life.

at the same time, i know i can't carry on continuously like i did the past two weeks. i had a mini mid life crisis today and went out and bought watercolors and brushes. so here i am, writing, listening to the song shauna and i recorded, and looking at a flower i painted and taped to my wall. i find a little comfort in my creations.

on painting: inspired by vermeer, i wanted to paint clouds, but when i started, i realized that to paint watercolor clouds you have to paint blue around them to make the white clouds and that all of a sudden seemed extremely difficult. flowers are probably the lamest and easiest to paint with watercolors. hopefully next time i'll challenge myself a little more.

also, i just got a sore throat.

blindness

i feel like in asian dramas, going blind is a big archetype, and usually it is caused by an accident like falling. is it that easy to go blind from falling? hopefully we learn this in medical school...

white coat

and now, medical school begins...